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About Kelly Terranova

How I fell in love with the best person so far...myself

Hitting 'Rock Bottom'

I began my career as a dance teacher in the fitness and leisure industry. During this time I trained to be a primary school teacher and was teaching over 350 children and adults per week. I got married, got divorced, watched as my mothers illness Huntington’s disease progressed, tried to come to terms with being at 50% risk of inheriting the disease aka ‘The Armageddon’ of illnesses and endured a series of very painful experiences surrounding relationships. My whole life was surrounded by goal chasing, achieving great things and being the perfect person… However I still wasn’t happy. Not deep deep down. So many things left me feeling rejected and I couldn’t understand why. I soon found myself at what I call ‘rock bottom’. It was whilst discussing said ‘rock bottom’ with a dear friend and spiritualist, I was opened up to the idea that all the fall backs in my life were potentially due to feeling ‘unworthy’, or ‘less of a woman’ for being at risk of this illness. I had pressured myself into being perfect in every aspect of my life so people would love me the same as everyone else, and I had forgotten to love the most important person; myself. The realisation that this could be true was a bitter pill to swallow. How could it all be a cycle?

Discovering Meditation

Through meditation, I became increasingly aware of my thoughts yet less attached to them. It was hard at first; robotic and forced but the more I meditated, the more I felt incredibly empowered and the more I found peace and calm. One evening during meditation, I had a miraculous experience. A visualisation appeared that would unknowingly change my life forever. Looking down, the sun beaming on my left cheek I saw my bare feet upon some stone steps high up against a villa like building. At the bottom was another version of myself, dressed the same, identical hair and features, but one thing was different. The Kelly at the bottom of the stairs was strong. Her shoulders were relaxed and she was gleaming up at me walking down the stairs toward her. Each step was painfully slow but incredibly empowering. As I reached my mirror image, we held hands and walked through a narrow passing to a deserted beach. We walked to the sea front and interlocked fingers. I could physically feel the wind blowing in my hair and the connection between our hands. I felt like I was set free. I felt a transition as I passed over to the new version of myself, who simply said without using any words, ‘we got this’…. and from that day on, my life changed for the better. I fell in love with the best person so far…. myself.

A journal was born... →

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Kelly Terranova
Hailing from the UK, Kelly Terranova is a BIMGAP Ambassador and the creator of the 'LYL Wellness Journal' which empowers women around the world. Through Love Yourself Lean, Kelly shares valuable resources that help pave the way to a healthy, happy and balanced life.